Sunday, November 9, 2014

Life Changes

I haven't written in nearly a year. A lot has changed in that time, I don't even know where to begin. I guess I can start with this. I used to be unhappy, I felt like I was dying more and more every day, I wanted to die. I didn't know what to do to be happy. I kept begging god to help me find happiness and it wasn't happening. I tried finding things to make me happy and it wasn't happening. Finally I made a decision that I knew I needed to make to change things, a decision that would make me happy. I decided to leave my husband, to leave the only thing I'd known for the last 8 and a half years of my life. 

Leaving Kevin was one of the hardest decisions of my life, it wasn't some spur of the moment decision, it was something that I thought so long and so hard about, I prayed about my marriage and everything that was going on for years. I tried for so long, so, so long, and nothing was changing, I had changed and nothing changed to make things better and my unhappiness grew. 

I am now living at my parents house with them, and I am working and I am dating this amazing guy, I am happier then I have ever been, I honestly wonder if it is possible to be more happy, although I can think of tons of things that could make me happier so I am guessing the answer to that is yes. 

So now, whats next? 

I don't know, but honestly I cant wait to see what life has in store for me. I don't know how often I will update, and I am making no promises, I guess we will find out.

1 comment:

  1. So glad you are doing so much better. Sometimes change is the only answer - but so hard to do. Best wishes from Carole's Chatter